Monday, April 1, 2024

WorldBuilding




I am creating a world to write stories in, as well as for my store (because my online store's physical location is located in a fantasy world!).  Here are some links to some great places that's helped me on my journey:


30 Scene Ideas for Worldbuilding - creative writing blog (eadeverell.com) (also check out her worldbuilding worksheets)

How to Build Magic Systems With the AALC Method (mdpresley.com)

Maps | MDPRESLEY

101 Worldbuilding Prompts (Forging Fantasy Realms) 

Top Down Worldbuilding Worksheet (mdpresley.com)

https://www.Fantasynamegenerators.com

Chapt GPT (to help me world build)

Azgaar's Fantasy Map Generator

https://worldbuildingschool.com/guide/photoshop-map/

https://www.instructables.com/How-to-make-a-fantasy-map-in-Photoshop/

https://creativemarket.com/AlenaO/6038103-Fantasy-map-Creator (can use Krita, which is a free downloadable Photoshop clone)

https://pixlr.com/e/#editor (a photo editor that's super cheap yearly or free for 3 saves a day)

https://www.etsy.com/listing/1360210300/worldbuilding-workbook


I don't have any great words to add to this post, as I am new to worldbuilding, but I thought you could use some links in case you were also creating your own fantasy world.  Good luck and link me below to what you've created so I can check it out!!  


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Tuesday, July 7, 2020

When Writing is Easy...



When writing is easy, you know it's the right story.  It can be right even when it's hard, but when it's easy, it's so very, very right.  If it's super hard, consider taking a different direction.  When I started my NaNoWriMo novel a couple years ago (still not done LOL), the beginning just keep stopping me.  I kept getting caught up in how I wanted to make the dynamics between the characters.  But it just hit me one day and BAM!  Easy to write. 

I've started my memoir literally twenty times in the past twenty years.  I've written it all sorts of ways and with all sorts of ideas of how I wanted it to work or how I wanted to put it together.  And this time, it just flowed out of me like water.  And I almost have three-hundred pages done and it's been around a month that've been writing it.  Considering it takes me YEARS on end to finish my stories (I have ADHD and get bored and wander off to do something else more exciting...bad habit, I know), this is quite amazing.  Maybe this is because the stories are true and I don't have to invent them, like we have to with fiction?  That could be why writing this was easier.  But as to why this time writing my memoir is easier I can only assume is due to the fact it makes sense to do so now.  I can look back without being in the thick of things (though, I kind of still am with some things).

Twenty years ago my father died and I thought my memoir would be about him.  Then I thought I needed to write one just about my mother.  Then I thought it should be about me, but I wasn't sure how to make it interesting.  But now, I can write about all of these things and then some, because I have the life experience and hindsight of a 43-year-old.  I've been broken, I've sought answers, I've healed, and some things I'm still working on healing.  And I can write about it all.  AND it can have a theme, which is great because a memoir without a theme is kind of like a diary that nobody wants to read. 

I'm in the process of editing it now (only a little over a  month after writing it) and I'm excited for how it's turning out.  I won't rush to get it published.  There may be more things to write about as I let it simmer in my mind for a bit.  But I'm excited to get so much done in such a short period of time.  And I am really loving how it's turning out (before, it was just a mess of unrelated stories). 

After it's edited and done, I will be working on my fiction again, which also excites me to to no end.  I just love writing.  I just need to push myself to finish what I start, so I don't end up with 500 more WIPS, like I have now! 
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Thursday, July 18, 2019

The Gatekeeper (Cunningham Manor: Part 3)



Sarah turned towards her unexpected guest, her face hotter than ever, and growled.  "Leave this table at once, Mr. Adams.  You were not invited."

Jude smiled.  "Well, actually, I was invited, but then Mr. Jack the Butler over here pulled some magic on me and tried to..."

"Jude!" Sarah yelled, surprised at her own volume.  If Emmanual's nephew had been prepped properly, she wouldn't have cared, but confusing the boy right now would cause more harm than good.   Though from the look on Emmit's face, she doubted anything would bother him much.  There was something about him that put Sarah off, but she couldn't quite put her finger on it.

Emmit snorted as he leaned back in his chair, lifting the front legs off the ground.  "Ooh, drama!" he giggled like a schoolgirl.

"Shush, boy!" his uncle hissed.

Emmit rolled his eyes at his uncle and cross his arms, in a mock pout.

Jack placed a soft hand on Sarah's shoulder.  "Let's take this out into the hall, shall we?" he whispered.

She nodded and stood up from her chair.

Jude stayed seated.  "I'm fine right where I'm at."

Sarah reached out to rip him out of his chair, but Jack stopped her.  "Please, you and I have something to discuss first, before we involve him."

Sarah's hands started to shake, but Jack steadied them with his own.  Something he was very good at was calming her down.  Well, that, and about a billion other things he did for her.  But then again, that was his job.  Though the amount of time they've known each other, she hoped he saw them as more than workmates, but as friends.  She followed him into the hall to discuss this new predicament.

"What?  What could you possibly have to say to me that doesn't involve throwing that boy out into the night where he belongs?  He will ruin everything, you know!"  Her voice was quiet but angry enough to be louder than she expected.

Jack closed his eyes and rubbed the bridge of his nose.  "It's Emmit, ma'am.  I think he needs to be the one to leave."

Sarah covered her mouth to keep from screaming.  "And do what?  Keep Jude?  We already know what that room does to him.  We already know how he reacts.  How can we in good faith send him back in there knowing that?"

The butler shrugged.  "I don't know.  But it's better than letting Emmit try, having no idea what's going on.  That for sure will backfire on us."

"And Jude won't?"

"Not necessarily."  He walked over to the doors and peeked into the dining room to make sure Jude wasn't upsetting anyone.  To his surprise, it was dead quiet.

"How so?"

"Well, for one, Jude has been in the room.  Several times.  And each time I erase his memory, it gets harder and harder.  And this morning?  It kept rewriting itself.  That isn't normal."

"And?  So what?  Maybe he just has a brain that reluctant to suggestion?"

Jack rubbed his hands together.  "No.  That's not what it means.  What it means is that the room is causing it to happen.  Somehow, the room has chosen him to remember.  Erasing memories is easy.  You know that."

Sarah nodded.  "But why?" She started to pace the hall as she thought.

"Because.  He is the boy."

"Ha!" Sarah laughed, unable to keep that one in.  "You saw what happened to him in the car, did you not?  You saw the beginnings of his insanity.  The same thing happened to Nathanial and look what happened to him!"

Jack's face softened.  "I know you miss him, Sarah.  But what happened to him wasn't your fault."

"The hell it wasn't," she snapped back.  "It was my responsibility to make sure everything went exactly right and I messed it up and while my brother at least didn't pay with his life, he did pay with his sanity.  I can't fix that for him.  There is no way to help him."

He lowered his eyes to the diamond-patterned wood floors.  He remembered when they installed these back when the house was being built.  He had chosen the pattern as it had reminded him of home.  "It was a learning experience.  We learned from our mistakes.  And that never happened again, did it?  We learned to do better."

Tears welled up in Sarah's eyes, and a few escaped from under her glasses.  "So, Nate was just a learning experience.  Glad to know that, Jack.  Glad to know my last living flesh and blood was just something to teach us how to get things right.  And in the meantime, I have to live with the fact that learning experience was my fault."

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean it that way."  Jack knew Sarah was the way she was because of that fateful night.  All her obsessive-compulsive issues, all of her anxiety, all of her neuroses.  All of it.  She caused her brother Nathanial to lose his mind to the point of having to be sedated for the rest of his life.  He had warned her not to bring him in.  Not her only living family member.  He wasn't ready and Jack knew it.  But she didn't listen.  Which was the usual for her back then.  She used to be reckless.  She never listened to any of his guidance.  But after that night, she never questioned him again.  Jack doesn't blame her for Nathanial's accident. 

Back when he was a gatekeeper instead of a guide, he had lost his own disciple.  But instead of just going insane, his disciple was killed.  It had taken him many eons to get over that one, as his death was not only horribly gruesome, but he had only been the equivalent of seven earth years old at the time.  Killing children was not how he wanted to spend his life, so from that day on he never allowed a child to be part of the ritual again.  And he required consent from each and every man involved.  Knowing what you're getting yourself into and going through the tests (that Jack devised himself) was a surefire way to stop anything negative from ever happening again.  Well, until Nathanial.  But then again, that wasn't strictly his fault.  Guides do not have say-so over who gets to participate in the ritual.  That's the job of the gatekeeper.

"We can postpone until next month.  Give Jude another thirty days to figure this out, if you like.  But I am telling you, the room chose him for a reason.  I've never been wrong yet, have I?  Not when it comes to a future gatekeeper."

Sarah sighed and wiped her face.  "No.  You haven't.  And letting Emmit come here was a rash idea on my part.  You'd think I'd have learned my lesson with rash ideas," she scoffed.  "But I don't think we should wait.  It's not that I want to throw Jude into that room and let it have its way with him, but its the eighth month of the year.  Next month's three-day full moon period will not be as strong as this one.  Tonight is guaranteed to work.  Well, if everything with our fileman goes right.  But every other month could fail.  And we'd have to wait a year for this moon to come again.  I can't stay here for another year.  Not alone.  And not without you."  She reached over and squeezed his hand.

Jack sighed.  He realized that she would have to spend the next year alone if they didn't get this done tonight.   They needed this to go right so she could become the next gatekeeper's guide.  Otherwise, Jack would move on, and Sarah would be left as the gatekeeper with no guide.  And finding the next gatekeeper would be left to her, and her alone.  Jack couldn't do that to her.  "You'll be without me anyways, ma'am.  You know that, right?  I  still have to leave on the thirty-first no matter what."

Sarah swallowed.  "I know that.  But we'll all be leaving here.  Together.  To go back home.  Our time here is done.  So while you won't be my guide anymore, you'll still be in my life."

Jack smiled at his coworker and was happy to know she still planned on having him be around even after he retires.  "So, let's get on with it then."

Sarah chewed her lip in thought.  "Well.  First thing's first.  Let's go ask Emmit to leave."

Jack let out a chuckle.  "I think that might prove more difficult as that boy is a little more rebellious for my liking."

The lady of the house turned to face him.  "Don't worry.  I have an idea."



Sarah entered the room with a frown.  "I am sorry to inform you gentlemen, but tonight's festivities are canceled after dinner.  Please, feast upon the deliciousness that Jack has provided for you, but I am sorry to say that after we're done, we will have to cut the night short."

The room broke out in confused faces, yet nobody said a word.  Jude kept quiet himself in order to survey who was at the table around him.  Who were these men and what were they all doing there?  And what did this all have to with what that strange room? He looked at the nameplates as he surveyed his fellow guests.  To his left was Clyde Cook, a banker who owned the largest chain of banks in the tri-state area, Cook Regional, which was a division of Oculus Holdings, LLC.  How Jude knew that was a mystery, but found that he realized he knew most everyone at the table, though he couldn't remember how or why.  To his right was Winston Maltby, who owned the locally famous racetrack, Sapphire Downs.  The next on the right at the head of the table was their host Sarah's seat.  Then Emmanual Buchannan, who owned Equinox Brewers, who's beer was distributed all over the world.  Across from Jude was a young man around his own age that he didn't recognize, but instantly didn't like.  But then came Harry Robson, who owned Western Garden Resort and Spa on Seventh Street.  Then Eric Delagney, who owned Orbit Stadium, which was located downtown and housed the Macaws, the Superbowl CLII champions (a game Jude had lost a lot of money on the previous year).  On the opposite end of Sarah was Benjamin Scott, who was the director and CEO of Redwood Meadows, the ritziest old folk's home in town.  And last but not least, on the other side of Clyde was Logan Curtis, real estate developer extraordinaire.  His construction company had just recently built Orchard Plaza, home to a slew of new shoppes but most notably The Hibiscus House, where his wife had frequented quite often during her pregnancy (she had strong cravings for their caffeine-free teas).

He realized quite quickly that these men, these seven men (minus the one he didn't recognize who looked like a spoiled man-child, dressed with the silliest looking ascot he'd seen since he'd seen Fred wearing one on Scooby-Doo in the library's archives as a child...who dressed like that in real life?) were the most powerful men in their city.  All of a sudden, a thought came through his blocked brain: they were the benefactors.  They were the reason that Cunningham Manor could operate.  They funded everything.  And everyone.  Without them, none of this could happen.  But how did he know that?  He looked up from his thoughts to see the young man across him getting fidgety in his seat.

"Aww man, I was just getting into the idea of a fight between you and, what was your name again?" Emmitt joked as he looked straight at him.

"Jude," the fileman replied.  He hated this man-child even more now.  What was this guy's problem?  He turned his attention to his host.  "And I need to know what's going on, Mrs. Foster.  I..."

But before he could finish his sentence, Sarah called out to her butler.  "Yes, Mr. Willowby?  Can you please set a spot for Mr. Adams here.  He will also be feasting with us tonight."

"Yes ma'am," Jack answered as he left to go fetch the extra table setting.  "Mr. Adams, can you escort me, please, I am elderly and cannot carry everything myself."

Jude wanted to ask more questions, but thought better of it looking across the table at the annoying man sitting in his seat staring at home.  So instead, he looked to Jack and nodded.  "Sure," he replied, but waited to rise from his seat.

"And no, Mr. Matthews, there will be no drama here tonight.  Mr. Adams is a guest, just as you are.  I had just forgotten I'd invited him." 

Jude tried to remember if he had been invited.  Maybe?  Possibly?  But after Jack started pulling his memories, some things were still not quite there yet.

"Damn.  Two disappointments in a row.  No drama.  And no festivities." Emmit shoveled a spoon of clam chowder into his mouth.  "What were we going to do, anyway?  Have an eight-on-one orgy?"

Collective choking sounds came from all around the room.  Emmit's uncle kicked him under the table, in which a loud "ow" came from Emmit's mouth.  "Just kidding.  Geezus.  You guys have no sense of humor."

Mr. Robson, who had been behaving himself all evening so far, gave Sarah a sly look, before taking another bite of soup.  Sarah rolled her eyes back at him and sighed.  Emmitt noticed and snorted.

Jude saw all of this.  He couldn't figure out why anyone invited the immature horse's ass to the party, but assumed it hadn't been planned.  Everyone there was a somebody.  The guy sitting across from him seemed he was related to a somebody, but not a somebody on his own. 

"Mr. Adams, are you coming?" came the butler's voice beside him.

He looked up to see Jack's soft blue eyes on him.  "Yes sir," he replied as he stood up and replaced his chair at the table to follow the man into the kitchen.




In the kitchen, Jude eyed Jack suspiciously.  "So, old man, tell me what's going on here.  Like, what's really going on here."

Jack was rustling through the cabinets for plates and bowls as he spoke.  "What do you remember?"

"Well, everything.  I wrote it all down.  Went back to sleep, and when I woke up, I looked at my notebook and everything came back to me.  The funny room with the funny name.  Your boss hiring me to get her files for her.  You.  All of it.  And then I had a crazy thought."

Jack's back was still to Jude as he rummaged around in the drawers now, looking for silverware.  They'd never had this many guests before and he was having a hard time finding enough for a place setting.  "Which was?"

"I've done all of it before.  It's not deja vu either.  I know it.  I did all of this.  More than once."

"That you have, my boy, that you have," he replied as he scratched his head, wondering where he could find more spoons.

"I'm not hungry, by the way.  So you don't have to get me anything."

Jack sighed.  The boy could have said this before he started looking for all of it.  "Okay then.  Well, let's get down to business, shall we?"  He gestured to the small kitchen table with two chairs, which was covered in books.

Jude seemed to notice that the book covers were written in various languages he didn't recognize. "What are these?"  He picked up on with a deep red cover, which was tinted in gold.

Jack continued putting the plates away without turning around, as though knowing exactly what Jude was talking about.  "You'll find out soon.  Well, within a few days.  You'll be able to read them."

The young man crinkled his nose.  "So, this has all been a rouse to teach me a foreign language?" he joked.

"Yes.  And it's also been a rouse to get you into the Sextury.  Those books are ancient Kama Sutra manuals."  He clinked the silverware back into their places in the drawer and shut it.

Jude laughed.  "It was funnier when Mrs. Adams said it.  No offense, old man, but the idea of hanging out in a sex dungeon with you doesn't sound like my cup of tea."

"No offense taken.  You're not my type either,"  Jack winked and plunked the cup he was carrying back into the cabinet.  Although he joked, he knew that Jude wasn't attracted to Sarah, thank goodness.  Unlike Harry, who was not only a womanizer, but also a deviant pervert who liked to 'employ' illegal sex workers (read: unpaid sex slaves) at his hotel and spa, something Sarah wasn't aware of.  He wished that he could just eliminate Harry from the ritual altogether, but they needed him, unfortunately.

"These," Jude pointed at the text on the front, "are not any language that exists today.  Just how ancient are these books?"

The old man walked up and smoothed one of the covers with his wrinkled hand. It reminded him of home.  "Not ancient.  Otherworldly."  He stopped and thought for a moment.  "Yes, they're still ancient.  But not in any form you could comprehend.  Well, until after the ritual.  Then you'll understand everything."

Jude smoothed his hair back and tried not to look worried but didn't hide it very well.  "Ritual?"

"Yes, my boy.  The ritual.  The entire reason you showed up tonight."

"No, I came because of this," he pulled out his notebook and showed it to the butler.

The old man inspected the pages for a moment.  "Your memories were the catalyst for you showing up here tonight, true, but did you stop to think why you have these memories?  Obviously, you remember me trying to erase these memories, do you not?"

Jude nodded.

"So, think about it, what do you think made you remember?  People just don't remember erased memories.  Not the way we erase them.  Something made you remember."  Jack looked at Jude's face, as though willing him to understand.

"The Octury," he whispered.

A smile spread wide across Jack's face.  The boy was getting it.  He was the right choice.  "Yes, my boy.  The Octury.  And I see that you remembering the Octury doesn't make you feel crazy anymore, does it?  Like it did in the car?"

"No, actually, it makes me feel..."

"Complete?"

"Yes.  A strange word to describe a feeling, but that's exactly how it feels.  Complete."

Jack rubbed his hands together in excitement.  He knew that Jude was the right boy.  He knew it from the start.  Sometimes the room is a little much to handle at first, but Jack knew that this boy would soon come around, given enough time.  "I thought as much.  I knew you were special.  I pushed for you because I knew the room wanted you.  I knew this because it always made you remember.  It never let you forget."

Jude's face looked screw up in thought.  "But, how can a room make me remember something?"

"Not something.  It made you remember it.  The room is alive, my boy.  You are to be the new gatekeeper.  It chose you.  That doesn't happen very often.  Most times the current gatekeeper chooses.  And even then, it can fail.  Over and over again.  There must be something very, very special about you, Jude.  Something that makes you like no other."

Jude looked up at Jack, bewildered.  "Gatekeeper?  What's a gatekeeper"

"We are the keepers of the portals to everywhere, my boy.  There are eight dimensions.  Some gatekeepers are from here, on this plane, like you.  And others are from...elsewhere.  You'll understand after the ritual."  Jack started picking up the books and scurrying about the room.  "We have work to do, let's hop to it!" A sound of glee emanated from the old man's mouth.

Jude put his hand on his forehead.  "Wait, wait wait...Jack!  Wait!  Listen to me!  Stop for a second."

Jack stopped bustling about the room, apparently exasperated at Jude's objections.  "What?  We don't have time to waste, my boy, the full moon starts in two hours!"

"Oh my god, old man," Jude put his fingers to his temples and rubbed them slowly.  "I have no idea what on earth you're even talking about.  A room that is alive that has eight doorways to different planes of existence?  Do you even know how crazy that sounds?  And what is this ritual?  And what does a gatekeeper do?  Could you please just try to actually explain something here??"

The old man put the books on the table and took a deep breath.  "Listen.  A gatekeeper is the person in charge of the Octury.  Think of the Octury like a person.  A person who holds all knowledge to the universe and beyond.  And you, the gatekeeper, are its bodyguard.  But not really.  You don't have to protect it.  You have to feed it."

Jude's eyes snapped open in horror.  "What the fuck?  Feed it?  What the hell do you mean feed it?  Like souls or something?"

"Oh my goodness, boy," Jack rolled his eyes and started laughing hard enough to activate his reoccurring cough. "You watch too many horror movies!  No, you don't feed it souls, you weirdo.  You feed it knowledge.  Each of these seven other people is here, of their own volition, by the way, knowing full well what they're here for, to feed the Octury their vast amounts of varying knowledge."  He picked up the books and headed out into the hall.  "Except Emmit.  I don't even know what he's doing here.  He was to be your replacement, but he's a freaking idiot."




As Jude followed Jack down the hallway, he still wasn't convinced that all of this wasn't something out of a horror movie.  The idea of feeding a room something was insane.  Although, he did feel connected to it in a strange, possibly horror movie sort of way.  "What happens after you feed it your knowledge?"

"Nothing.  You go home and live out your life, knowing you've contributed to the most important thing you can do with your life."

Jude shook his head.  Marrying his wife two years ago was the most important thing he could do with his life.  Having their baby boy in three months time will eventually be the most important thing he could do with his life.  Participating in some goofy ritual for a room that is supposedly alive didn't sound as much important, as it did insane.  "Sounds a bit dramatic, don't you think?

He turned to look at Jude square in the face, so close he could smell the clam chowder on his breath.  "You don't understand, my boy.  If nobody feeds the Octury, everyone dies.  Everywhere.  Here, and all the other planes as well.  Yes, I'm being very dramatic here, because everyone dying everywhere is dramatic.  The Octury, and all the other seven Octuries on each plane, are the batteries in which our existence, well, exist.  Without them, all matter would evaporate into nothingness.  We wouldn't just die, it would be like we never existed.  Your baby boy would never grow up, but more than that, he'd never have had the ability to have been alive in the first place."

Did this guy read his mind or something?  "How did you know I was going to be a father?"

Jack shuffled out the door with his massive stack of books.  "How do you think we picked you to be our fileman?  We did our homework, my boy.  C'mon, let's go."

Jack watched the old man head down the hall towards this elusive room that was supposed to be alive and wasn't sure he wanted to follow him.  What was going to happen if he let this room feed on his knowledge?  He didn't know much of anything of value that some room would want to know about.  He barely had a high school education.  The only thing he had of any value was back at home eating dinner by herself because he told her he had to go deliver some more files for the person that hired him.  He had the sudden urge to run the opposite way, towards the front door and head home.  But if he did that, he'd never know what secrets that room held for him.  His answers would never be answered.  And if the old man wasn't lying to him, he could be at fault for unraveling existence as a whole.  But more than that, because the idea of unraveling existence sounded like an overreaching made-up movie plot, he felt a compulsion to be in that room.  Something drew him there.   He remembered becoming obsessed with it whenever he was away from it, even after the old man erased his memories this last time. Which was why he came back tonight.  He wondered it if was the same for everyone here.  Except for Emmitt.  Apparently, Emmit had no idea what was going on that night, even less than he did.

"Jude?" came Jack's voice from the hall.

And without really thinking about it, he headed out the door and down the hall, leaving behind any rational second thoughts he might have had.  "Here," he answered as he knocked the door of the Octury.





Check out Part 1: The Octury Here!
Check out Part 2: The Dinner Here!
Check out Part 4: The Ritual Here!

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Saturday, July 13, 2019

The Dinner (Cunningham Manor: Part 2)



Sarah inspected the table after Jack had set it, just as she always did.  This annoyed Jack to great lengths, as he'd never once misplaced any piece on the table settings, but there Sarah was, with her measuring tape, making sure the silverware was placed exactly the right amount of centimeters apart from one another.

"Ma'am?" he sighed.  His employer had a penchant for nervousness, which one most days he could ignore, but when she turned her attention on him, it drove him over the edge.

Sarah smiled. "I'm sorry, Jack.  I know this bothers you.  I am not making comments on your work, you know that."

Jack sighed again.  "I know.  But speaking of that, are you taking your medication?"  Her medication made her sane, without it, she was a complete mess.  It was nice being able to work with her when she was stable.  He enjoyed her company immensely most days.  But when she was like this, she'd usually spiral out of control, which was why it exasperated him.  He had seen enough of her spiraling out of control to last a lifetime.  And from where they were from, that was a very, very long time.

Sarah's smile faded.  "Yes.  Why does everything I do that you don't like have to do with me not taking my medication?"

"Because that," he pointed to her tape measure, "is a sign of your obsessive-compulsive disorder resurfacing."  He was always nothing but blunt with her.  Dancing around difficult subjects was for the past and they were expediting a trek into the future.  He didn't have time for this.

"I am taking my medication, Jack.  Every single day.  Now shush," she growled at him and snapped her tape measure together and put it in her pocket.

He backed off and instead took his duster to give the room another once over before their guests arrived.  "So, the boy."

"I told you last night, he's not the one."

"Yes, well, his place is still set at the table.  Did you find a replacement?"  He hoped she had.  He really didn't want to have to clear away a place setting and start over from scratch.  When Sarah had placed all the plates and silverware on the table for him to set an hour ago, he hadn't counted them right away.  After he had finished, he counted and had realized the mistake.  He considered not telling her, but knew if he didn't, she'd obsess all night about it.  Not to mention they needed a boy for the evening's festivities.  But not just any boy.  The right boy.  And after having Jude fail the day before, he started to wonder if the night was going to even happen.

"Yes.  Emmanuel Buchannan will be bringing his nephew, Emmit."  She smoothed her skirt for the hundredth time that day.  Another sign of her affliction.

Jack let out the breath he had been holding.  Thank goodness, he thought.  He just hoped that Sarah knew what she was doing by bringing in a new boy so late in the game.  He knew Jude would have eventually worked out, but they had a deadline to meet.

She reached over and rubbed his shoulder.  "I know.  Erasing Jude's memory proved to be harder than we anticipated.  And I also know how much hard work you put in for me on a daily basis, Jack.  I do ask a lot of you.  But soon, it won't be necessary and everything will be in place."

Jack had worked all night into the morning trying to erase Jude's memory, taking each piece out bit by bit, but it seemed as though when one piece was removed, another would take its place.  He had to erase large chunks at once, which scared him as he had never done that before on a human.  He had no idea what the ramifications would be.  But since Jude's brain proved to be difficult, he assumed it wouldn't do much of anything.  Jack was more scared, but also secretly excited, at the thought of Jude's brain just replacing all the memories as soon as Jack was done.  He patted Sara's hand.  "Then everything can move forward as planned."

"That it can, my friend.  That it can."  She turned to the front door just as the doorbell rang.  "Ahh, our first guests."

Jack nodded as he turned towards the front door.  "Showtime."




"Mr. Harry Robson, ma'am," Jack announced the first guest to his employer.

"Nice to see you again, Mrs. Foster," Mr. Robson said as he gave a slight bow as he handed jack his coat and scarf.

Sarah held out her hand to her handsome guest, who took it and gave a soft kiss to her knuckles.  She felt her face grow hot, but instead of ripping her hand away, she just nodded and smiled.  If Sarah had learned anything in her many years on this planet, you didn't offend a guest.  Especially not one you needed something from, even though she knew that Harry was overstepping his bounds, once again.

"Likewise," she replied. She gently pulled her hand back and use it to point to the table.  "Please, feel free to have a seat.  Your nameplate will let you know where to sit."

Harry raised his eyebrows.  "Assigned seats?  Lucky me."

Jack pulled the third seat from the left facing them.  "It's not a punishment, I assure you.  You'll be busy once all the guests get here."

Sarah wondered if Jack knew what had happened between her and Mr. Robson during their last meeting.  She hoped not.

The doorbell rang again and the butler left to respond to the bell.  "Excuse me, sir."

Harry turned his attention to the mistress of the house.  "So, you come here often?"

Sarah let out a small laugh, despite her uneasiness at seeing him again.

He motioned to the chair across from him.  "Sit.  Have a chat with me."

That wasn't Sarah's assigned seat.  The idea of sitting in the wrong seat made her squirm.  As did the thought of having a conversation with him, especially after what had happened between them the last time they were in each other's presence.  But, she knew that upsetting him was not on the agenda tonight, so she pulled the chair out and smiled across the table to her dapper guest.

Harry had a large blackish-brown mustache with a twist at each end, something she only saw on the hipsters around town.  Had she not already met him, she may have assumed he was one.

"So, thank you for inviting me back again.  I was hoping you would."  He took the glass on the table in front of him that was filled with iced water and brought it to his mouth for a sip.

Sarah blushed as she found herself staring at his lips as he did.  She quickly looked down at her hands and started to babble.  "Yes, well, you proved to be a good contender in this situation that we're in.  You passed the first test.  And now we're seeing if you pass the second."

He placed the glass back on the table.  "Happy to oblige."

She looked up at him, at his perfectly manicured mustache, and then his lips again.  She quickly brought her eyes up to his before he caught her staring at his mouth again.  "Well, you do know what's at stake," she whispered barely loud enough for him to hear.

He nodded.  "I do.  Though, even if not, I would still come to dinner at your house.  Perhaps even more so," he smirked.

She smoothed her skirt again for what felt like the hundredth time and then pulled her blonde hair over one shoulder to obsessively smooth it.  She found herself wishing she had pulled it up into its usual bun or ponytail, which kept her from thinking about it.  She was overheated and felt as though her hair was sticking to her face, which was making even her more squirmy than usual.  She leaned across the table so she wouldn't be heard by anyone but him.  "What happened between us last time cannot happen again, Mr. Robson.  It was a mistake."

He leaned across his side of the table to stare into her eyes, which unnerved her a bit, which seemed to please him. "It was not.  Otherwise, I wouldn't be here."

"Mr. Robson..."

"Harry."

"Harry.  You said you knew what was at stake here.  So act like it."  She abruptly stood from her seat and shoved her chair back into place.  Harry was good at playing mind games.  But this wasn't the time nor the place for it.  Too much was going on.  Too much could be lost if things didn't go right.  And Harry better not mess this up.

"Mr. Buchannan and Emmit Matthews, ma'am," Jack gestured to their new guests.

Sarah switched her scowl to a smile and reached out to shake their hands.  "Thank you both so much for coming.  And you Mr. Matthews, we really appreciate you coming on such short notice.  Otherwise, we'd have an empty seat at the table."

Mr. Buchannan smiled.  "Well, we can't have that, can we?  Ol' Emmit here was happy to come.  He's never been a formal dinner before."  He clapped his nephew on the back.

Emmit rolled his eyes at his uncle and pulled away from him a bit.  "What my uncle means, is that I have never been to a formal dinner in such a beautiful house before.  Tell me, Mrs. Foster, is this a family home?" he remarked as he glanced around the foyer hall.

Sarah looked at Emmanuel and searched his face for answers, who gave her a wide-eyed shrug.  "Well, in a way, yes.  It's so very complicated that we'll have to have another dinner party to explain it all.  Come," she said as she gently took his shoulders and guided him to take his seat.

"Emmanuel, you obviously didn't tell him a thing, did you?" she whispered in Mr. Buchannan's ear as he passed by.

"Sorry ma'am, I knew you were in a hurry to find someone and didn't think to talk to him about it," he whispered back.

She drew in a sharp breath, knowing that if Emmit caused this entire night to not go off without a hitch, she wasn't going to be happy.  But more so, she needed Jack to be happy.  Tonight's outcome dictated his future.  "Don't worry about it.  We'll just move forward as planned."

The door rang again, this time the front door opening for four more of her guests.

"Winston Maltby, Eric Delagney, Benjamin Scott, and Clyde Cook, ma'am."

"Thank you, Jack.  And welcome everyone.  We are eager to get this night started so please hand Jack your coats and then take your places at the dinner table."  Sarah could feel that her meds weren't working as well as usual and needed to go take something a little stronger, because her mind seemed to be spinning out of control.

She excused herself to the kitchen and placed a pill in her mouth and took a swig of water from the sink.  She closed her eyes to calm herself.  First Harry was trying to make something more out of their arrangement than it was.  Then Emmit wasn't prepped before coming.  When someone wasn't prepped, bad things can, and usually would, ensue.  Just as it did with Jude.  But Jude had been prepped.  More than once.  And still, he almost went crazy, which, in retrospect, didn't make much sense.  But she had to be extra careful because before Jude, there was Nathanial.  And she didn't want what happened to Nathanial to happen to Jude.  And now Emmit.  God, if Emmanuel would have just prepped Emmit, this wouldn't be an issue right now.  But, if they waited to another night, they'd lose one of the nights of the full moon and that would seriously lessen their chances of thing going at all.  Sarah wanted to scream.  There was no good answer here.  No good choice to make.

The bell rang again.  It must be Logan Curtis, the eighth, and last, guest.

After a few moments, she heard Jake's voice from the hallway.  "Ma'am, we're ready."

Well, it was now or never.  "Coming," she answered back.  She turned and made her way down the ornate hall that filled with gorgeously striped wallpaper and dark wood wainscoting, and then back into the dining room and plastered a big smile on her face for her guests.  She could feel the Xanax easing her mind back down to normal again.

"Well now, looks like we're all here," she said in her most cheery voice.  "So, let's get this party started shall we?"  She motioned to Jake to start serving the courses as she took her seat at the head of the table.

But just as Jake turned to leave, the doorbell rang again.  He turned to look at Sarah, who stared back at him.  Both were thinking the same thing: who would be ringing the bell now?  Everyone is already here.  Her stomach turned in knots as went to the front door.

Seconds later, he appeared with a horrible look on his face.  "Ma'am.  We have another guest."

Sarah laughed nervously.  "No, we don't. We're all here."

 "Jude Adams, ma'am.  He's come back."

Sarah had to swallow back the bile that was creeping up her throat when she saw the fileman appear behind Jake's back.

"Hey.  Looks like I'm late for the party."  Jude had grabbed a seat from the hallway and had pushed himself in between Winston and Clyde at the table, who's faces looked more confused than turkey who was about to be deheaded for Thanksgiving dinner.  "So, what'd I miss?"




Check out Part 3: The Dinner, here!
Check out Part 1: The Octury, here!
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Saturday, May 4, 2019

The Octury (Cunningham Manor: Part 1)






The fileman rang the bell, which was answered by the house's butler.  "Hello sir, you've been expected."

"Thank you," he replied, as he entered the hall.   He looked over to who must be the lady of the house, the woman who had hired him earlier that morning.  She looked young, yet not as young as he, but also had the stern look of someone many years older than her lack of wrinkles let on.  She dressed in a slim black skirt that fell just below her knees and a soft black top that looked like it was made of silk.  Her blonde hair was pulled up in a messy bun, with strands falling out over her thick black rimmed glasses.  She looked important, but had no idea who she was or what she did for a living.  He had been hired that morning to retrieve files from various places (lawyers, the courthouse, various accounting firms, etc.), but lucked out when he googled the woman's name, as nothing appeared in the search engine.

"Mr. Adams, I presume?"

"Yes, ma'am.  I have the files you requested."  He laid them on the table in front of her.

She adjusted her glasses to fit on her nose better.  "Thank you."  She looked back down to the papers in her hand.  "Please take them down to the octury and put them on the table.  Jack will show you the way.

"This way, sir," replied the butler.

He crinkled his nose and paused for a moment.  Where did she say to put them?  "The octury, ma'am?"

She gave him a look from above her glasses.  "Yes.  It's down the hall.  Like I said."

He smiled.  "No, I mean, what is an octury?"

She smiled back.  "It's a room.  Which is called that because it has eight walls, of course.  It's shaped like an octagon."

He looked confused.  "Okay.  But octury isn't a word.  Rectory is a word.  It's in the dictionary.  But I'm pretty sure octury isn't.  Did you make it up?"

She sighed.  "Oh dear boy, all words are made up by someone.  Now please, go put my files on the table in the room that I just told you about."  She dismissed him by turning around and went back to the files in her hands.

He laughed quietly at the way rich people were always shoving him off like he was not on the same level as they were.  "Okay."  She didn't really answer his question.  But that was the way of spoiled rich people.  They didn't like being questioned.

He turned around to follow Jack the butler to the octagon room with the funny name.  Jack looked all business so he didn't dare ask him any questions, but just as the door opened, he noticed she had not been lying.  The room did, indeed, have eight walls, with an octagon shaped table directly in the center.  It was immaculate, too, with soft red and dark red vertical striped wallpaper on the walls, which made the room look bigger than it really was.  He searched for some indication of what the room's purpose was, other than just having eight walls, but alas, he could find nothing, other than the strange fact that there wasn't a single window. So he placed the files on the table and went back out into the hall, leaving Jack to close the door.

He wasn't convinced that the room was called that due to only its shape.  So he approached the lady of the house, once again.  "So, if the room with eight walls is called an octury, then would you call a room with six walls a sextury?"

She pulled her glasses off her face and smiled.  "Oh, the sextury!  That's what we have in the basement."

He wondered if she was joking.  "What?  You have a six-walled room in your basement?"

"Of course!  But that one is filled with whips and chains and all sorts of manners of sex toys.  We also call it the sex dungeon," she winked.

Now he knew she was joking.  "You almost had me there for a bit," he laughed.

A mixture of amusement and playfulness spread across her face.  "What, you don't believe me?  Would you like to see it?  Though I will let you know that if you enter the sex dungeon, you may not leave until I say so."

The fileman started chuckling out loud.  "Oh really now?"  This conversation was getting a little out the realm of his paygrade.

The smile fell from her face. "Yes.  That room isn't for show.  It's for action."

He started to get nervous and his mouth went dry.  He cleared his throat and shifted his stance from foot to foot.  "Oh really?"

She smiled again and put her glasses back on.  "No, I was just pulling your leg, delivery boy.  But thank you for playing along."  She started to walk away.  "You can show yourself out.  And thank you for bringing my files.  I'll be needing more in the next few days, and for what I pay you, I expect you to be on call."

He let out a sigh of relief, though he wasn't sure he was exactly relieved.  "Yes ma'am.  I am at your beck and call."

She seemed to like the sound of that and turned to him again with a smile.  "Oh and one more thing."

"Yes?" he responded.

"Welcome to Cunningham Manor, dear boy.  You better be one to keep his wits about him.  The last boy we hired...well, let's just say, he wasn't that kind of person.  And now you're the one doing his job.  Let that be a warning."  With that, she winked at him again, and disappeared into the dark hallway.

Dread seeped into his brain from his stomach.  What had she meant by that?  But then he remembered who he was dealing with and knew that rich people always had a flair for the dramatic.  With that thought, he let out a breath he hadn't been aware he was holding.  "A warning," he laughed under his breath.  "Whatever," he murmured as he turned around to head out the front door.

Before he could open it, an arm shot out in front of him stopping his exit.  "It would be wise to pay heed to the lady's words, dear boy.  She may sound a bit cuckoo at times, but she knows what she's talking about," Jack the butler softly spoke into his ear.

Wow, everyone seemed to be completely crazy in this house.  "Sure, my good man, sure," he clapped the butler on the back.  "See you soon!"  The fileman opened the door and ducked under the butler's arm and waved back at him as he left.

"You'll see.  You'll definitely see, dear boy, they all see.  Eventually."  Jack's voice came out sounding more silly than ominous, as he most likely had meant it to sound. 

The fileman tried not to laugh as he shook his head.  He then hopped into his car and started the half-an-hour car ride home.  He was going to Google Cunningham Manor later and see if he could find a history about it.  These people were beyond strange, but even more than that, the room, the octury, there was something about it that bugged him. More than it should.  He didn't know why.  And that that bugged him even more.

He stopped to ponder the lady's words for a moment. "You better be one to keep his wits about him..."  Was that a warning about the octury?  He had no idea why it would be, but he also thought that's exactly what it was about.  Was he a man who kept his wits about him?  Considering he was obsessing about an eight-sided room, he assumed he was not.  But it didn't matter.  He needed to know why the word felt so familiar yet so foreign on his lips. 

"Octury" he said out loud, all alone in his car, hoping it would break open some long buried memory.  "Octury, octury," he repeated again.  He began to feel dizzy.  Something.  There was something to it.  So he said it again.  "Octury."  And again.  "Octury!"  This time louder.  "OCTURY!" he yelled, almost screaming.

For a moment, nothing happened. Just the beating of his own heart in his ears.  But then time seemed to stop and the lady of the house appeared next to him with Jack the butler.  He looked around to see they were on the property of the manor, in the gardens out front.  It wasn't quite reality, but also not dreamlike either.  It was somewhere in between.

"He's not the boy," she said to her butler.

"No, he's definitely not the right boy," Jack agreed.

"He's not ready."

"He never will be."

"Maybe one day?"

"No."

"Well, there's nothing we can do with him now.  Just send him back."

"Will do, my lady."

Jack snapped his fingers in his face, which was as loud as a firecracker.

The fileman gasped and shot up in bed.

"Jude?  Are you okay?" came a voice beside him.  "Was it that dream again?"

He looked around the room, trying to get his bearings.  Where was he?  He tried to shake off the sleep that still pervaded his brain and then realized he was in his room with his wife.

"Yes, my love.  I'm sorry, go back to sleep," he reassured her.

"Okay, sweetheart.  I'm here if you need me.  Just remember," she said with a yawn.  "It was just a dream."

He smiled and patted her arm.  "I know, I know," he replied.

As he looked around the room again, everything started to look familiar.  His nightstand, covered in books.  His dresser, covered in cologne bottles and random pairs of jeans.  His walls, decorated in music posters of his favorite bands.  This was his room, but at the same time, it wasn't.  He didn't belong here, did he?  No, he belonged in an eight-sided room in a creepy stone manor which resided behind a large rusty gate, outside of Aldeburgh.  It was covered in red vertical stripes and housed an eight-sided table in the middle, which was used for...what was it again?  It was on the tip of his tongue, but he just couldn't reach it, like a dream.

Because yes.  That's what it was.  It was a dream.  It was only a dream.  It was all just a dream.  At least that's his wife had said, right?  That the entire thing was a dream?  That's what it had to be then.  Nothing more.

Except it was more.

Something in his brain was fighting him on this.  Something was clawing at his memories trying to steal them back.  So he grabbed his notebook on his nightstand and a pen out of the drawer and drew it.  After that, he wrote down everything he remembered happening.

There.  Now whatever wanted to steal this from him couldn't.  Or it could, but at least it was written down this time.  So he'd have to remember when he looked at his notebook again.  He could Google it later.  See if there was anything out there about an eight-sided room in a place called Cunningham Manor outside of Aldeburgh.

But for now, he placed his notebook into the nightstand drawer and went back to sleep.  He didn't dream again that night, but then again, he wasn't really sure he had dreamt anything in the first place.



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Tuesday, December 4, 2018

How to Use Tarot Cards to Get Story Ideas








I am so in love with my tarot cards!  I've been a reader for almost 30 years, getting my first deck at 12 years old from an auction in my neighborhood as a kid.

I will say, in that time, I've really changed the way I've read them.  When I started reading them in middle school, I thought they would predict my future, to tell me things in life would get better or how something amazing could happen.  It was exciting and fun!  But even though I used the "predictive" style to read the cards, my underlying way to use them was to see them for what they truly were: which is a tool of introspection and deep personal connection.  This means that every single card can be applied to every single person.  This why they work so well.   As I've aged, this has become the only way I use them, for both myself and my clients.  They aren't magical, they aren't supernatural, they are cards with archetypal images on them so you can see what you need to see in them in order to access your deep desires and feelings.  Answers always lie within you.  The tarot are just tools to help you see those answers.

But, if you want to gain story ideas from them, you have to work them a little different and pretend you're a little more like Miss Cleo (she was a great storyteller! LOL).

There are so many ways to generate random story ideas, but the tarot can give you so much more than just a online generator would (or other ways to get story ideas).  They give you pictures that you can draw from for your stories so you can details that you may haven't thought of.  Which make them the ultimate tool when creating the perfect story idea 💗

Here's how:


  1. Pick a layout (see below).  You can just deal your cards and come up with a story idea, or pick a detailed layout to give you a very detailed idea. 
  2. Grab a tarot deck (or use a free app on your phone or tablet if you don't own a deck yourself). 
  3. Shuffle the deck any way you wish. 
  4. Lay out your cards (either in a layout, or just deal as many cards as you like).
  5. Read the cards either based upon the positions in the layout, or just read the cards and get a story idea from the reading.  You can use a book to read the cards, with the traditional meanings or you can just "read the card", which means to look at the card and let it tell you a story.  I like doing both. 
  6. Record your reading (on paper, audio, or video).
  7. That's it!

Decks:


Some of my favorite decks for this use are: 

The Gaian Tarot
The Llewellyn Tarot
The Forest Folklore Tarot


Layouts: 


Write a list of what you want to figure out for your story.  You can do a character sketch or a story idea.  It could look like this:

Main character, sidekick, love interest, plot, setting, etc.

Or for a character sketch:

Age, job, personality, quirks, life growing up, etc.

Each one of those will be a different position for your reading.

Then you shuffle and deal as many cards as you chose for the layout (per your list).  Then choose which card would fit for what position.  If a card can't or won't fit, pick a new one.  And bam, you have your story idea or a character sketch!  Very easy to do 🙂

This technique leads to endless story idea possibilities!  And you're guaranteed to come up with something unique every single time.

If you'd prefer to get a story idea from a seasoned tarot reader, then contact me at  www.facebook.com/jaelynntarotreader and I'd be happy to put something together for you!  Story ideas start at only $10!  Click here for more info!!

And if you have no idea how to read a tarot card, then feel free to join my class that teaches how to read tarot with no psychic ability needed!

(this class has been cancelled due to the service I was using went out of business!)


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Monday, January 29, 2018

Fear




Fear


deep   in   the   dark   house

of   emotionally   sick   monsters

mom   &   dad   drink   from   plastic   perfect   lives

as   always  fear   rises   in   my   skin

I   desire   to   find   peace   again

their   corrupt   game

a   sad   sweet   storm

of   created   evil


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